Since we lost power Monday night, I've enjoyed staying with my sister-in-law, my brother, and baby Desmond. I've really enjoyed having girl time & being able to help with the baby and it's been so much fun. But I've also had so much going through my head and I seem to be getting worse and worse as the days go by. I've been wanting to write for weeks now and for some reason every time I sit down with my computer and open word pad I just sit there. I have so many things I want to say and write out, so many different things I want to get out but for some reason I freeze up. I cant write them out and it's driving me insane.
So here I am sitting on the couch watching oth, so frustrated with myself and wanting to just be happy. I'm doing my best to save money for a very important trip I want to take as soon as possible. I'm working as much as I can and I'm trying to find things that I can sell to get more money quick. I just feel like the more I want this, the harder it's gonna be to get. I'm just scared that I'm fighting so hard and it's gonna backfire on me. Because I want this so bad.
My mind is racing and everything feels overwhelming at times, but I'm hoping that everything will work out in my favor. And now with that all done and said I'm shutting down my computer, curling up on the couch, and going to sleep.
Kanato · Sun Nov 04, 2012 @ 09:00am · 0 Comments |