12-27
Ah...talking with Logan makes me as happy as it does Heather, Fliss, Ginzo, or even Aero, Xeno, Stef, Neg, Nyx anyone(course cruel as it is, the first three, four including Logan, bring more joy than the others. -ahem- painful admitting that)
Anyways. I again come to write a conversation, er...more a debate among myself without remembering it.
So my more cautious, cowardly, apathetic, scientific, asexual 'Body' self keeps trying to delete my Gaia and FB accounts as well as blocking or ignoring any text I may recieve from Amin nosse et mellon.... Course I('Mind') and my 'Spirit' self object highly so Body hasn't gotten rid of them. (really need to get real names for the other two. I can settle referrence as BB but the other need other names than Body and Spirit) we both know that right now I can't handle the pain of withdrawl, of manually dismantling bonds I've built so quickly and have become so dependant upon. Maybe I never will. Main reason I think she wants to destroy them. She doesn't want to risk the kind of betrayl and pain I've left myself open to.....
Random subject change that might loop back to that, I need an object. Something important. Something that if I had to choose between it and one of my mellorn or melloan, i would at the very least hesitate before choosing. Now I have nothing. My cross, two of my rings and my beyblade are the only things i'd hesitate throwing if a mellone asked me to with just cause, but even those if I truly had to choose, I'd ditch them in an instant. I need an object that shares a strong a bond to me as I do to my mellone. An object I trust as silly as that sounds.....
 BSPBleach · Fri Jan 27, 2012 @ 06:55am · 0 Comments |
