Kitcat6363
scream No paying back donations! It's a gift, not a loan!!! You've been nice to me. I can do something nice for you--so I intend to do it. *determined face*
Dying Marionette
-huggles- C: but you're already so nice, Kit. You have a good heart and i hope that never changes.
Kitcat6363
I'm not that great redface
Dying Marionette
Oh, but you are. few people support me in this quest. Very few. And you, someone that's doing so much for others like the Nudity event, took time out of your day to not only ask me what was wrong, but also lent a helping hand. I put that status up a total of four times, and no one responded to it....but you did. I'm so so so very grateful. *Bows deeply* This Marionette is honored to be your friend.
Kitcat6363
redface redface redface
Thank you so much *huggles* I sometimes think I'm worthless, so that really means a lot. I'm so happy I was able to do something for you that meant so much! One of my greatest pleasures is making people happy, and helping people. It's almost a craving, sometimes... If I can do in real life what I do on Gaia, I will be content (or at least I probably will be wink ) Just so you know, I almost cried when I read that... *glomps*
Dying Marionette
*catches and smiles* And i meant every word of that. Hopefully with your help, and maybe a few bumpers, more people will see my quest. And who knows...if i have gold left over i'll donate it to someone else's cause. I know how it feels to struggle for someone, and there's hardly a soul that will help them.
Kitcat6363
You are a precious person heart
Dying Marionette
^ ^ ; thanks. Not many people see me that way, because i often act cold and it's hard for me to change that. But those who are willing to talk to me, be kind to me, chipping that coldness away become my closet friends. heart you're one of the few that's tried it and succeeded. C:
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psychic toaster
Kitcat6363
ChrystalAngelous
Ixica II
ChrystalAngelous
Nyah.... I thought I was the only one afraid of Lux.
I don't even understand this but older guys and smarter people, and people with money, and just people in general terrify me.
In school I got bullied so often I just got scared of everyone.
o.o
And abusive boyfriends plus my mums ex didn't help my childhood.
But this is teh internetz, so I guess I shouldn't be breaking into a cold sweat but I am.
-squeak-
I think everyone is scared of him. gonk
I was bullied a lot, too. I just got mean. I lash out at people really easily now because I want them to hurt as much as I've been and it's usually at people who look like or sound like the people who bullied me. evil
I try not to lash out as much,
I did a couple years ago and I ended up getting jumped by two older guys.
;-;
Then the regular teenage story happened where I turned to sex, weed, and alcohol to appease me depression.
THEN a bunch of other crap, but I dun wanna make everyone feel depressed with my sob story. XD
I'm sorry they bullied you though, they still try to get to me, mostly because I'm tall and fat, but that's also why they're scared of me. :3
I did a couple years ago and I ended up getting jumped by two older guys.
;-;
Then the regular teenage story happened where I turned to sex, weed, and alcohol to appease me depression.
THEN a bunch of other crap, but I dun wanna make everyone feel depressed with my sob story. XD
I'm sorry they bullied you though, they still try to get to me, mostly because I'm tall and fat, but that's also why they're scared of me. :3
I just want to say that you have a beautiful soul kitcat and that's all that matters. heart
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9:49pmDark_Aoekae:
yesh xD
sorry my gifts sucked so bad
by the way
9:49pmKitcat6363:
What? They were awesome!!
I love 'em!
9:49pmDark_Aoekae:
well i would have given you something better, but I only had stuff in my invo to work with xD
9:50pm
I'll save up and get you something better for your bday
9:50pmKitcat6363:
but I love it! It's hard to tell under everything else, but I'm already wearing the pants from keymaster&3
MUCH cuter than the jeans (although those WERE pretty cute ;D)
9:51pmDark_Aoekae:
I kind of wish i hadn't gone crazy buying a bunch of stuff off my wishlist
i would have had a mill to spend on you xD
9:52pmKitcat6363:
csan't type
speecheless
9:53pmDark_Aoekae:
xD
I'll save up for your bday
I might be able to get a mill going again
9:53pmKitcat6363:
now I understand how people can faint from shock
9:54pm
I could hardly move, just stare at the screen when you first posted that, and then it started going all blurry...
THAT IS A LOT OF GOLD
9:55pm
I'm glad I'm typing cuz I don't think I could talk
9:55pmDark_Aoekae:
lol
9:56pm
well, you deserve it &3
9:56pmKitcat6363:
no I don't
9:57pmDark_Aoekae:
yes, yes you do
you're awesome &3
Sweet, kind, fun and funny
I could go on, but I have a feeling you're already blushing
9:58pmKitcat6363:
yeah I am
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I have to put this in my journal
I save stuff to buoy myself up when my depression is bad and I feel worthless
thank you, dark
9:58pmDark_Aoekae:
no problem
9:59pm
thank you for being so awesome
You're really sweet, and I feel blessed to know you.
9:59pmKitcat6363:
You're making me cry...
9:59pmDark_Aoekae:
should I stop? o.o
9:59pmKitcat6363:
you don't have to....thank you
10:00pm
I feel pretty lousy because I can't go back to college this fall
10:00pmDark_Aoekae:
because I could probably fill up a few journal entries worth of stuff, just listing how awesome you are
10:00pmKitcat6363:
and it seems like everytime I start to get things under control, something else goes wrong
thank you
those words are so inadequate
10:00pmDark_Aoekae:
Yeah. I think everyone has feelings like those. Some have them more often than others, but we all have them.
10:01pm
It seems like trouble/sorrow/bad things come in threes or more
It's never...I stubbed my toe, but I'm having the best day ever!
10:02pm
its...I dropped my notes and they went everywhere so i was late to class, so i got a bad grade on a test, so I flunked a class...and i just stubbed my toe!
I can see only one flaw in you, kit. And that's your inability to see how awesome you are.
10:03pm
Because you are super super awesome. And I wish you would see it as easily as everyone else does
Xx_iLiet_xX
Thank you for the kind words, Kitcat. You are so sweet. I hope the writer's block goes away, too. ^-^ So far, I have tried going out to get inspiration, roleplaying (which I don't do much of anymore except mini roleplaying, in a chat instead of a forum), writing poetry (which didn't actually turn out so bad. And if you remember how much of a low self-esteem I have, me saying that is saying something ^-^), drawing, and just taking a break. None of it has really worked. : > But it's okay. I mean, I love to write, but good things have to end at some point. ^-^
Kitcat6363
"Good things have to end sometime"?!?! Writing is not one of them!! Maybe you should just try writing really short stories, like from prompts and first sentences, etc. Then you can have all the bad, awkward ones as practice and you could draw from them later for the good parts. It sounds like maybe you just need to try and force through it until it gets easier. I know that works with dealing with anxiety.... By the way, your avi looks absolutely adorable, and angelic heart You are smart and a hard worker. You'll hit your writing stride again soon, and we'll keep reminding you that you are way awesome and loved every time you come in, until you find something that helps beat this depression. I, myself, find it useful to save inspiring notes, uplifting quotes, things people have said to help me... I have a Gaia journal entry where I copy and paste anything positive people have said to me that's touched me so I have something to look at when things get bad and I feel worthless. I have some things IRL that I hope to eventually put in a scrapbook, too...
Xx_iLiet_xX
You know, you are one of the most nice and selfless people I have ever met and/or encountered at all. You are so awesome, kitcat! <3 I wish I could be as selfless as you when it comes to this, and I just hope that that caring and patience comes with age. ^-^ We all love you in here, and if anyone can overcome their depression, it's you <3 I know I'll overcome my depression and my writing block soon enough, hopefully, but I KNOW you will be able to get past this too <3 You are super strong. : >
Oh. And I have math next semester, last class ||D Honours.
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A k a t s u k i Pandii
BEHOLD! THE JAR OF AWESOME! BOW TO IT! BOW I SAY!
-bows to it-
(for Kit cus she was feelin' down ^^)
Thanks to Pengii for the idea!~
