I should know better. I should be able to prepare myself by now. Not that it would've helped. Seth totally blinsided me. I never expected it from him. I should've been prepared though. Whenever that comes up, theres always i chance that memory, and those after would pop up. But I wasn't prepared at all! damn it. I can't get rid of them now.......I was forced to talk to a family member and clean! to get them under control..........the pain and s**t keeps flaring up making me feel like im having an asthma attack, but at least its not as bad and the images of the memories are fading, becoming transparent in my vision. Hope it doessnt pop back up in my dreams...............so far they are my only haven from all this crap. i cant have them soiled too.................
edit: i cant beilieve shadow thought i 'released' to what seth said...........that's nasty. and wrong. and terrible! i know he cant have known why i left to begin with, but he still thought that.................*shakes head again* not right.
 BSPBleach · Thu May 26, 2011 @ 04:54am · 0 Comments |
