my grandmother just flew in today...
and boy are her arms tired that is pathetic. can definitly tell ive been runnig on like 5hrs of sleep for the past three days.
anyways im just moping and complaining cuz i have to move pinball machines, mum is leaving tomorow, and ill be stuck at home all day for like the next week with a 3yr old, a 5yr old, and a 63yr old. all three of them more stubborn than the bloody tree and hastea's out front of the house. burned them, drowned them, drought them, deprived them of sunlight, hell we pulled the bloody things out of the ground! and they're still alive! not that that ha anything to do with really anything, so nevermind.
why do i write things like this? all it does is document the procession of my insanity! and prove to me over and over and over a lot of things i push out of my mind during the day....
*sigh* in case you've been reading my other entries, and still dont relize, today is a very negative day. probably will stay that way for the next week. but thats negative now isnt it? but if it wasnt negative, id be lying. which now that i think about it, calling optimisim lying is a very negative take on optimisim. reminds of a few stupid lines from a show from awhile back:
"i'd rather be a greedy friend than a stupid one!"
"well id rather rather be a stupid friend than a greedy one!"
"of course you would!! cuz your stupid!!"
i thought that was just a perfect explaination to a lot of things. but im a complete and total introverted recluse, who gets way to sensitive to the feelings of others be they real or not, so i do weird, random, even stupid stuff like that a lot.....cant believe ive written that much talking to myself. should write a book, "Internal Diplomacy" or something really lamely stupid like that.....
 BSPBleach · Sat Jan 15, 2011 @ 06:59am · 0 Comments |
