I miss my Taylor....
I cant get my head off of him long enough to wrap my mind around the fact that
he wont be on for a while...
In a way, thinking about him makes me forget hes not here...
Until cruel reality hits me again and then...well...it hurts like someone actually hit me.
My only wishes are that this doesn't hurt him as much as it hurts me...
Because if it does, I also wish I could take all of his pain and keep it for myself.
Then he wont have to be hurt.
I just want him to be here again.
But I constantly have to ask myself, if he were here...would I be?
I never have that much time on school days either.
It would still be the same...
just the other way around.
I wish school never existed,I wish you didn't have to be 18 or older to live on your own,
then I could stop playing gaia and be with him in real life.
That would be paradise....
and obviously to easy for it to actually happen.
Since it cant happen I think its just best that I keep holding on and-no mater how much it hurts-wait for Taylor to come back with a smile on my face.
I'm sure He would like for me to be happy.
and it makes me feel better knowing he wont be gone forever.
I just have to keep going...
Try to be strong.
 sarafina_star13 · Thu Jan 13, 2011 @ 05:05am · 0 Comments |
