It's amazing how alike we all are.
I used to be the helpless little child always asking for advice. Now I know how Kimmi felt, now that I'm a senior with younger friends. Suddenly I have so many people asking me for advice. And I'm discovering that I can give it to them. I'm actually helping. It's amazing. But hard at the same time. I feel like everyone's so heartbroken recently. So many people...I hate high school...it's a mess of hormones and broken hearts and love triangles and pentagons and..
I'm so screwed up and I've made so many dumb decisions. Or were they? I don't know and it's driving me crazy.
I'm so sorry..
You know. I'm just now realizing, I'm so blown away by...I mean, I never ever thought of myself as a like-likable person. And now I realize all these times, all these chances, where people actually liked me for me..
It's hard because I've always been that person who can't decide because I want it all. I'm so afraid of what I'm giving up. And so now I feel like a whore like all the time.
I can't wait to get out of high school. And yet I don't want to at the same time...
And I also realize how Phil felt. I felt so good for a year or two...and now I'm going back, slowly but surely, to my old self... Well I asked for it. I got happy, and then I felt like I was losing myself, so I wanted to go back, and here I am.
 LadyAlisyn · Sun Nov 15, 2009 @ 04:12am · 1 Comments |
