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	random ramblings of WhinterGoddess
	random ramblings of WhinterGoddess


i feel so sick. ive been numb for the longest time, so frozen. my heart wasnt beating. now that it is, i feel sick. i hate being alive. my stomach is in knots, like ive been doing bad things, which i haven't been. i want to curl up and die. it hurts so bad. i feel the war inside me. numb to thawed. the thing is, is that i cant die. ever. i have to live untill my friends all die first. i cant leave them. they have to die first. i have to take care of them, and make sure they are ok, make sure they are happy and loved. i cant leave them. i want to cry, but i cant, the tears dont flow, i want to say i love you, but i just dont know, i want to be good, but it just dosnt show. how can i be anything, without hurting someone? how can i stay sane, if i have to be, so many people at once? its like i have one clipped wing, and one working lung. i dont know anymore. i cant stay and i cant go. MadameX_XLust · Wed Nov 11, 2009 @ 12:55am · 0 Comments


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Scientist think that on December 21 2012 we are all going to die post this in you signature if you will be laughing on December 22 2012

'its never enough, no its never enough, ill never be wat u want me to be.'

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