i cried too you ignored me too what did you want me to do? act like nothing happened i wasnt trying to make any one of you miserable ok i felt like s**t cuz of what happened but im playing the victim right i tried to explain that i understood why you didnt want to spend the money and s**t but once she said that i was acting like a victim....i gave up on trying and you know what she may love brian but honestly from what he told me...he doesnt feel anything towards her. she made him think that she was gonna talk to me and she didnt say anything to me not even asking me how i have been he never told me that she asked how i was feeling or anything like that. instead she just askied him how he was doing and how she missed him she doesnt miss me and unless i hear from her myself i wont believe it. and if she misses me then why hack into my aim and tell brian bulls***? thats not missing me, thats just all around being ******** up. and you know that too thats why i even wrote as much as i did. and i wasnt ganging up on you through her ok i was crying when i went to vanessa ok...i was telling her how i didnt want to lose either of you and she does not like you ok thats not my fault...i even told her that if you guys are happy then ok im happy for you too but not letting me even try to plead my case cuz you did yours was ******** up. and i honestly did try ok if you dont believe me fine then. but you and i both know i really was giving it my all and i know you were too but some of the s**t that happened because of that day, was uncalled for and the whole cristina thing, i told her because when i told vans that i talked to her, she told me to let her know about it. if i still had the paper where she wrote it down, i would give it to you but i dont. thats the only reason why she even knew about that. you didnt want to even give me a fighting chance to try and talk it out im a liar im this im that but im the one who is doing all of the s**t talking...are you for real? ill be all the things you say that i am. people have been waiting to tell me off for the LONGEST. oh and another thing you shouldnt have held your tongue. we had just met you barely knew me so why hold it? i didnt care if you guys hated cici...i really didnt cuz i didnt hate her and i didnt hate you...i still dont but to tell her that ALL of us didnt want to see her was messed up and she may have been drunk but the truth does indeed come out when you are drunk and i know that for a fact. so i dont know what else to say to you...i have apologized and if you want to accept it..you know where to find me if not then i guess thats it sis.