Total self awareness comes with a heavy burden. You can't fell as you once did. Your mind is so completely taken over by the analytical that it overrides you base emotions where your person is concerned, or something immediately relating to you is concerned.
I just realized this and.... I want to scream, to cry, to shout, to...to do anything and...I cannot. It i like when Paul Atreides knew he was the Kwisatz Haderach, and his father had died. "Why can't I mourn?" He wondered. He felt that every fiber of his being craved this release, but it would be denied [to] him forever. (p192, Dune by Frank Herbert)
I know how he feels. I need a release from this and...there just isn't one, at least, not one I can find. It hurts. I am in pain and will never express it......
((damn. I lost the game and......iunno, that was impressive somehow))
 Yokolita · Sat Oct 18, 2008 @ 01:17am · 2 Comments |
