I've been feeling like s**t since late Saturday night. I wasn't really sure what caused it, I've been in pain, I've felt dizzy...I didn't understand why I felt this way. It didn't go away yesterday and it's still here as of now. It went away for awhile when I was at Teddy's today. I should feel so happy since today is our 9 month anniversary, but so many things have gone wrong.
A great friend of mine suggested that it might be stress that's causing all of this pain and all, but now I know that's what it is. Everything that my dad says to me is a threat, I act responsible and I'm taking care of myself since he won't. Why am I being treated like this? I ******** hate it more than anything and it's driving me crazy. I can't take all of this pressure, the lies and accusations, I can't deal with it all, with all of this s**t that the world is throwing at me. I just can't...I feel so drained and empty; hopeless. And it's all because of one ******** a*****e that hasn't left me alone in a long time! Everyday it's like I'm being harrassed, and my warnings for him to leave me the hell alone aren't doing anything. I swear I'm going to snap, I know I'm going to. And the worst thing is that it's probably going to be the one person who doesn't deserve it...whomever that may be. I really need help, I have to get out here. I just cannot take this anymore, it's literally driving me out of my misery. I don't really have anywhere to turn, considering that I'm not 18 yet, but less than 2 years is way too long for me to wait to get the ******** out of this hell hole! I honestly don't know how long I can hold on...I honestly don't know how long I can hold on....
 ralphy71889 · Mon Aug 15, 2005 @ 10:25pm · 1 Comments |
