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May's life has seriously gone downhill with a little ups along the way. However, the little ups have barely changed my perspective on life at the moment. She's still... -sighs- suicidal at times, though she tries to fight it much as she can.
Slipped and sprained my ankle and bruised my internally earlier in the week...but its healing nicely.. though I still walk with a slight limp and cant stand on it for long.
Today is my last day at work, but I am too sick to actually go. I cant muster the strength or the will to walk down there. I am kinda excited about it.. though I will be out of a job til I go home. But thats alright, because I am guarenteed a job when I get there! ^^
College is just as stressful as always, even I dropped two classes... dropping me from 11 credits on the 8 week block to 6. I'm still behind, struggling through biology, and not getting much of anywhere. Statistics is easy... the tests are open book, the class meets one night a week, and I'm good at math. Biolody is just.. not my subject... never been good at it... but I'll keep trying... hopefully bring it up from the D it is to a B... but I'll be happy with a C..... pray for meh!
I was diagnosed with depression two weeks and put on medication because of it. There is no history of it in my family, just as there is not history of asthma or allergies. My mom thinks it might be because I'm so far away from home, but I really dont think that is the cause of it.... it might be a contributing factor.. but I really dont know. I just knoew I want it to go away... I want my life back...
Roommate situation has been better this block... there's 3 of us in this apartment still.... one went home for the block to work, and the other is never here... but when she is... all she wants to talk about is guys... -growls- the one still here has a lot of irksome habits... like refusing to buy toilet paper, paper towels, or dishsoap, and washing her dishes because she has a mealplan that she can get one meal a day.... but I wont get into those! lol!! looking foreward to not coming back...
May's mommy is making her sing in church when she gets home.. and may's terrified... she loves the song she's singing.. but she still gets nervous in front of groups of people.
Three pregnancies!! Sammie is 13 weeks in, and has just discovered that she is having twin boys: one to be named Scott Alexander (or Alexander Scott), and the other to be named Edward Nathaniel. Her baby's due February 11. Sky, Ant's wife, is 10 weeks pregnant, but is in the hospital now getting a surgery done to remove a cancer... she cannot do chemo right now because of her pregnancy... pray for her.. cause Ant's scared... She will be induced late-December to mid-January sometime, to start chemo, though her due date is March 2nd. Komi is having a baby too!! whee April 1! there will be 3 infants!! -giggles-
May's book will be updated shortly, and the alternate story I am writing for Meri and Kimi's RPG (and have posted in the last two posts) is still a work in progress. hoping to update both after I get some well deserved rest tonight. ^^
May misses her Lara.... cry why did you have to go so far away!! crying
Meh... enough of my "emo-ness" sleep is calling my name on the whispering wind. >> hey... at least the construction doesnt start for another hour and half... if I'm lucky I'll be deep asleep... and not get woken up by it again... ^^:;;
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Right Here Waiting For You by Richard Marx
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you</center>
... whoever you are ... my one true love... whether I have met him yet or not... the words in this song are true...
Anyways... I want people to respond to this.. please... guys... so far.. I only know of 4 people that actually read my journal... thats griev, Horo, Darion, and Lara... so yeah... respond.. please...
 Marion-san · Sat Jul 30, 2005 @ 11:59am · 7 Comments |
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