What did she do wrong. Is she the cause of her own depression. does she make sound worse than it is. Just so SOmeone will understand her. Or is it the real thing and no one cares to pay attention. Or they do and they come up saying "it's just middle school. It's everyone our age. YOu're not alone." Or "I can help you. I can help you come to your senses Your not alone." WHat if I don't want help. What if I want someone to just listen not give an excuse or help me. Just listen to me. I don't want anyone to GIve me any help. No one can help me. Only I can. I Just want someone to listen to what I have to say. Just so my thoughts are out in the air and not killing the person the thoughts belong too. I just don't want them to hurt so much inside. I want them to be free in this air that we breathe. I just want it out of my head so it stops eating up on on the inside. Everytime I have help they're not just out there they go into the lungs of someone else. They breathe it in. It becomes they're problem. I don't want it to be anyones problem.It's mine I don't want anyone to take me away from it. I don't want to run from feelings I want to fight and use them to my advantage. So that that they disappear and never come back. Not so I have to hide them with every breath. I want to free them out ,but With all the helping and excuses it makes me feel like I'm runniong not fighting. I feel like a little kid in a corner scared to go out and see what's outside and get scars and fall out of trees. I'm afraid of rejection. Getting scared up. I afraid of making someone hate me. SO I was at the top of the list and then fell from that damn tree and broke everything in my body.
SO just listen to it. DOn't make up an excuse. Don't breath in my problems. i just want you to listen.
 ACrimsonRevo · Sun Jan 13, 2008 @ 10:17pm · 0 Comments |
