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Okay, who wants to hear me ramble about how annoying men are?

No one.


No, shutup, you don't!



Who wants to hear me ramble about a problem of mine with these creatures?

No one.

But I will anyways.

Firstly, let's get one thing straight that will help you mucho grande later on, my Church is my life because I'm home schooled. Church is my hangout, my friend pit, and my Dad's job. It's also my source of friends and assortment of crushes.

Another helpful little fact is that this little affair centers around two boys in a family called "The Stones." Why are they called the stones you ask? Because it's their last name.

Ah yes, Griffin Stone, age of 14, completely psycho and retarded on the outside, but funny and charming in his own way.

Then there's William Stone, age of 13, psycho, retarded, a rung below most on the evolutionary chain, and not charming at all, I've come to find.

Now, considering I myself am 13 would you think the suitable suitor is Will, right? At least, that's how most people I know view it. The problem is, I don't like Will. I used to. Now, some horrific streak of fate has caused me to hate him, and like his brother.

I'm a horrible person, aren't I?

Before you decide, hear my little story;


Okay, if you've read so far, you're probably all ready to hear me out and give me advice. Before I present the problem, I'd like to thank you.

Now, this all starts with a friendship. The friendship between me and a Meridith Stone. Her brothers happen to be the two guys I mentioned earlier. Me and Meridith met after our parents met and soon we were all good friends. Similar interests and morals and a common Church melded us together. So, basically, I was really close to the Stone family. There was even a point when I came over literally every weekend and a few other times during the week depending on current events. Well, being close to Meridith, I was also close to Will. Long and aggravating story short, I grew a crush on him. When I first met him he was nice and kind. We would talk about video games we had played or TV shows we had watched for hours. After we he found out I liked him though, he started acting mean. Not the whole "I like you and I'm trying to hide it" mean, but mean! He made fun of me at every chance he got, when in public he became my worst enemy, he even was violent at a point. This was not the person I had grown a crush on. So I tried to keep him out of my life. I really grew to hate him.

Well, after a few months of ignorance, he emailed me asking me to be his girlfriend! I didn't want to hurt his feelings, but it was time to make a clean cut. My little slice was immortalized as a "NO." So I just sort of floated for a while. Not particularly liking anyone specific, I mean, I still had crushes on a few people, but they weren't the kind I'd ever reveal to anyone but a close friend.

Up to this point I had never even considered Griffin. He was kinda distant and, well, not in the picture.

This soon changed.




One night, my parents were practicing for worship team, ( My Dad's the worship leader and my Mom plays the Bass, so she's included. Griffin's Mom sings sometimes too.) So, eventually, we played a game of hide and seek with my siblings to get away from them. We kinda sorta ended up in a dark room.

Great situation eh? Oh no, it gets better. So, out of the blue, he asks me who I like. I answer fairly truthfully with an " I don't really know." Sounds awkward huh? It wasn't nearly as bad as it sounds. My siblings found us and we left the room.

Okay, before continuing, I need to state some facts about Griffin. He's been "with" almost every girl in Youth in Church. Which isn't so bad considering we aren't that big of a Church. And it hasn't been an actual with. It's pretty much been an "almost with". He also, at the time, had recently been inquiring as to wether or not my freind Monique liked him. So I had assumed he liked her. (On a sidenote, she does like him. And she's 15, and much closer to him. )

We eventually hid again. This time it was a big suprise for me, what he asked. "Do you like me?"

I was rather stunned that he'd ask such a thing. It's true that he'd been near me all the time, but as I said before, he wasn't really in the picture. And, I realized then, that the answer was yes.

So I truthfully answered, "Yeah, I guess." My siblings found us and then it was time to go.

After that he started avoiding me a bit, but recently he's been back to his normal self.


NOW FOR THE ADVICE PART! FINNALY! My question is, what exactly do I do now? I don't really know if he likes me, and I really want to know. I also want to keep this on the down-low. People in my Youth Group still view me as childish for some reason.

Advice people, commense advice now!!!

Yeah, I was thinking I should just ask him. But I don't want to come off as pushy, and right now we have a stable relationship as just friends. "Tis' better to have loved and lost than to never loved at all" though. First, I'll ask other people. I'll ask Merideth and Monique if he's ever acted this way before and gather all the information I can, then suck up and ask him straight why he asked me that. That seems to be the best choice, right?

why would it be awkward? is it because u guys are just friends now? u think bcs u have been thru friendship, a bf/gf relationship would be weird? confused

The problem is, as I said, everyone at church thinks I'm an innocent little 13 year old, if I where to suddenly date Griffin, they would think differently of me, like I was cheap or something. Plus, the deal with his brother, what would his parents think of me? I'd seem slutty in the eyes of all now that I think about it. And I'm still indesicive(?) as to whether or not I like him. It just wouldn't work out. If he wants to be with be, he should be the one to voice it. It's mean to ask someone that without voicing their reasons. If he expects me to be the bold one here he's got another thing coming.