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I will never comit suicide but i havnt had a friend in 8 years.... my friends i just made dont care even 80% about me. they all seem to be in some kind of relationship and they all are better at everything than me......... theres a lot more but i wont talk about it............ (edit) im feeling gay towards my best and only real friend... but he has a GF and i feel stupid.......

my best guess is that something really bad happened recently, and that's why u feel that way. anyway, that u can't suicide is a GOOD THING. u shouldn't kill urself over these things, if we did, there'd be no one left alive, bcs we'd have all killed ourselves at the times we felt bad. as for ur 'friends' being better than u at things, that doesn't matter. there's always something that others do better than u, as well as something u do better than others. it's completely fine, natural, and common. as for the 'lot more' and 'not talking about it', that's really ur choice, but from what i gather with that sole message, i think u r just having a bad moment. and as for the feeling gay towards ur friend, that's not a big deal at all. perhaps u feel atracted to him bcs u get along so well. u shouldn't feel stupid over that; it happens, and it's only a big deal IF u make it one. otherwise it's 'nothing'. u really shouldn't feel bad over these things. just think about the good things, good experiences, etc, and be more careful "for future reference". don't worry, it's not a big deal. it'll pass in no-time ^_^

Life is not pointless though it may seem that way. I moved down to marland and was friendless until the 7th grade. (sure that was two years but being the new kid never really helps.) Once you find a friend you must keeep them no matter what. ,I agree some friends don't care even 1% about you but ( i made this up during MSAs. Made me feel better.) it is not the amount of people who don't care about you that should suprise ypou but the amount that truely do.

If your gay get a differnent guy, and dude, you can always move and start over in a new town

Your right about the life is pointless part. But don't let the whole people don't lie you thing get int the way. The thing that's keeping me going, i live just to spite those who want me dead. Walk around with your head up high, and make it so nothing can get you down. People suck hun, some better then others... and some use their teeth sweatdrop

And the whole feeling for your only friend. Don't worry. If you are gay, you'll find it out. If your not, it's just a silly boy crush. Nothing to fret about. Things will work out, i promise. And, if you ever need someone to talk to, i'm here =]

I know, i know your probly thinking "WHO THE HELL IS THIS EXTREMELY WIERD BOY!!" ha. well, i am, me! =] hehe.

You remind me of this kid i know. Ok, so he isn't very popular, never has been. But it's not like people don't like him, they are sorta afraid of him to be honest. He didn't have many friends, and really i couldn't blame people, he's on of the wierdest kids i know, next to me of course. Well, i was friendly towards him (cuz that's how i am, if your not a complete a**, i'll be your friend, and stick with ya till the day you piss me off.) well, he ended up thinking he was gay, because he liked me. and it turns out he's bisexual. cuz he did like me. and things are slowly working for him. Although... now he wears naruto headbands around school.... -.-'' i need to teahc him some fashion. eh.

anywayz, things will work out.


My AIM is Kogas Tribe. just IM me some time if ya need a little chat. I'm not bad at the whole keeping people alive thing. I've chatted two people out of it, and i stopped a girl from cutting her wrists.

No offense... You're a religious person in the way that you have a fear to God for giving your life and afraid to take that gift away... But its kind of freaky having a crush to your friend which is literally a guy! Eeeewww... xd

Welll having no firends is hard to deal witha nd having friends that don't care is worse but I've been there and I made one of my best friends because I was crying in school (I never cry in front of people) and she was the only person who wanted to know what was wrong. I told her nothing but she didn't believe me and now she is my only real friend. So what I'm saying is don't try tp make friends ust be you and they'll come to you!

I don't think a flame war over who's gay or straight or how right or wrong it is would be such a fine idea. :<
As for feeling life is pointless, most of us hit that point once and awhile. The trick is to try and keep busy and focused elsewhere. When you're young, it's hard to see anything other than a giant mountain that's impossible to get past. If you continue to suffer under feelings of wanting to hurt yourself/others or listlessness, etc try and get help. I know parents don't always understand depression. If you're in school, counselors and even the school nurse can help you talk to your parents and get you help.
You may feel helpless when it comes to the type of people you find attractive. That isn't always something you can help. You do not have to tell those around you how you feel about guys until you're ready. You may feel alienated because of it. Just hang on and you're gonna be okay.
I know the internet isn't the best of socializing and support, but sometimes it's all we have to get us through to the better places. You have our heart . Be good to yourself, hon.