Ambivalence

[Mermaid Marmalade]

Having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone.  

[Third Chaos Saint]

huh??? confused  

[chessiejo]

think: "my ex"!

there is still affection there

so that i would be sorry if he died,

yet there is a whole lot of frustration and anger too!

i am ambivalent!  

[Rosenfall]

now that makes sense  

[chessiejo]

or it could mean that i am a clam!

which is a bivalve.

http://www.shells-of-aquarius.com/images/cebu_clam_pairs.jpg