afraid of getting over a fear

[Kanneric Knite]

i recently decided to get over my fear of pain and try something, and it kinda scares me to know i don't mind it as much as i thought i would, i really want to tell someone, but i can't tell my best friend cuz she's got some s**t in her life now too and i can't trust anyone else cuz they'll tell pretty much everyone in my school
i have an annoying tendency to associate actions with mental disorders and experiences from childhood, so my.....kinda........explanation is that this is my first "irrational" action in a long time, usually the knowledge that something is a symptom of a disorder is enough to stop me from doing it, it's not this time, it's freeing, but..........ngeh..............any advice?  

[Damian Water]

no, I'm sorry I have no advice for you...v.v

How dare you make me lose the game, AGAIN  

[Toxic Corrupt]

Wow, I would have advice for you, but that post made my brain die. XP I couldn't understand it, sorry.

P.S I just lost the game...again.  

[TrustMeImFalling]

Im confused. Could you re-type that? I don't understand your situation as well as I could  

[wildblackfire]

Kanneric Knite

i recently decided to get over my fear of pain and try something, and it kinda scares me to know i don't mind it as much as i thought i would, i really want to tell someone, but i can't tell my best friend cuz she's got some s**t in her life now too and i can't trust anyone else cuz they'll tell pretty much everyone in my school
i have an annoying tendency to associate actions with mental disorders and experiences from childhood, so my.....kinda........explanation is that this is my first "irrational" action in a long time, usually the knowledge that something is a symptom of a disorder is enough to stop me from doing it, it's not this time, it's freeing, but..........ngeh..............any advice?

your talking about cutting aren't you? stare