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So my boyfriend is a wonderful, amazing person in sooo many ways! He's somewhat nerdy and yet exstremely social. He's very clean and has great manners. He's also one of those people everyone tends to think is awesome.

he's in college now, about two hours away.(he's not able to get a ride back home often and I can't drive) I've been cheated on before by two other guys so I always worry that the same is going to happen with him...he talks to me every day and tells me about who he met and whether or not he made new friends. usually it's guys on the same floor as him in the dorms but every time he mentions a girl even if he only says one sentence I worry like hell about it. I really do trust him to the fullest extent that I've ever trusted anyone but yet I still worry. I even talked to him about my worry and he told me he'd seriously rather be dead than hurt me like that. I could tell by his voice that he really meant it. He went on for about 20 minutes telling me how much he loved me and then about how he worries about me worrying.
even with all that he said to try and make me feel better and reassure me I still worry and I feel bad about it...I absolutely refuse to break up with him over this worry and the distance doesn't bug me. But I feel so bad about worrying! It feels like I'm betraying my trust for him...


any advice??

EDIT: and I just remembered to add on so there's no "how old are you" things. I'm 17 and a senior in high school, he's 18 and a freshman in cllege

we haven't been together too long. just since march 23 of this year. about 4 months isn't to long to me.

but he's so great and we've never gotten frustrated with each other and haven't even bickered and neither of us harbor any bad feelings towards each other. I'm just waiting for him to realize he desrves better than me or something...I have really really bad skin so I know I'm not the prettiest girl out there. I'm sure there's a pretty girl who's far superior to me out there.

(this is my mule) it didn't start on march 1st you know. and it's not the end of september. I don't really count march into it since we started dating on the 23rd

actually, the distance issue sort of solved itself today. he told me he has a friend that lives nearby him back here where he actually lives that also goes to the same college. He offered to give him a ride back whenever he needs it. then he has another friend that's an hour away from his college but he also lives in the same area back here and he passes my boyfriends college on the way home. He also offered rides. so I'm feeling quite relieved.

i agree with liraine, bcs of past experiences u r still feeling like this, regardless of how much u *think* u trust him.

altho in my case it's different [bcs i've never been cheated on...since the relationship i'm in happens to be the 1st one; i'm 20, btw], i'm on the same boat except it's not him who went to college 3 hrs away, it was me. and i'm the one with the car and liscence [tho currently no car bcs sis crashed it, still getting fixed, blah blah, end story i don't have a car at this very moment]. it's true, long distance relationships are extremely difficult, specially on college time. while he may have a ride, he will more than likely have lots of things to do [eventually] in which case u guys might go 2 weeks without seeing eachother [BEEN THERE].

also, instead of feeling bad for worrying, try to slowly work it out. we all know it's normal [considering ur past experiences], so instead of feeling guilty, try and work around it. it's normal to worry, i do too sometimes [in truth, not that much, but i still do occasionally] even tho i've never been cheated on, even tho i fuly trust him [and he trusts me, too, bcs i have a knack of always knowing more guys than girls, so while IN THAT SENSE he would have more than enough material to worry about it, he trusts me greatly].

lastly, 4 months may not be a great deal of time, but it's *long enough to be considered long* if u consider other people's relationships....tho that really IS besides the point. what i was gonna say is that "problems" and "far worse bickering" usually happens after the 6 months [been there]. HOWEVER!! regardless of when it might happen, if there's really something there, talk it out. relationships are NOWHERE NEAR "always peachy". the KEY to a good relationship ISN'T NOT FIGHTING, IT'S GETTING PAST IT, it's talking it out, reaching a balance, working past it. most ppl break up bcs they don't talk [excuse the cliché, tho in my opinion, if it's a cliché it's bcs it's been around long enough, bcs IT'S TRUE]. my boyfriend and i have been together for 2 years now, and it was in fact on our 6-month "anniversary" that we had a HUGE @$$ FIGHT. he almost broke up with me [he considered it, he told me so]. BUT we talked about it, after he had had time to cool down of course. we r still together and love each other very much. we talk evry day even tho we only see eachother once a week, if not once evry 2 weeks [doesn't happen often, THANK GOD]. so my point is: bickering isn't the problem, not talking and not working it out IS. keep that in mind.

yes, it helped ^___^ all of you are helpful whee I feel better

I know what it feels like except I can't see my boyfriend till I return to the states hopefully next summer. I worry but he tells me not to and the only choices I have are to break up with him or trust him. I trust him fully because I have talked out my worries before with him and found out he worries more about me cheating than him. He has some of his friends here keep on eye on me, which is sweet and annoying at the same time. Talk to him and see what his feelings are, I bet its not one sided worry.

very good I'm happy to hear it hon razz