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Everyone sees my pain and walks away,no one seems to care.I watch myself slowly fall apart,it hurts when no ones there.Am I just going crazy,is this all just in my brain?Am I the only one to blame for all my hurt and pain?Life's no longer worth it,it's lost it's luster and it's shine.Happiness is just an illusion my soul will never find.I have finally lost myself in this crazy game,life has knocked me down before but this is not the same.I don't know who I am or what I'm looking for.This time I can't pick myself up and I won't try to anymore. just a poem I wrote.I like yours.I'm a little depressed too.

Your mum needed medicine as well? Wow... that's weird. Be glad that your dad was watching out for you... otherwise... where would you be?

Fighting. It's all I've ever known. I've been hated by everyone. I hated too. But this is it. You learn a lot past the point of death. When you die but still breath. I remember how much I wanted to feel, and why I believed it was worth anything to live. There is unspeakable evil in this world. Hate, malice, immorality of our own nature. So much so that you forget what’s worth fighting for. Yet some still fight, some still look for something more. Why? What is it they see that we miss? We are the next generation. There has been no other like us before. No other that has been battered and ripped apart so badly by propaganda, indoctrination, and the sheer immorality of the ones before us. So much so that we can’t feel anymore. I threw my life away; I despised it because I knew change would only affect me, not the world. The world would remain the same despicable evil place run by tyranny. But I remembered something today. I remembered why I wanted to live so badly, why I wanted to feel when I was alone in the dark. Because the good things. The things that touch your heart, the things that inspire you, and the things that give people hope for a better future make it worth it! This world will rip you it will tear you it will hurt you in ways you never thought you could be hurt. That’s a fact. You will reach so far down that you’ll feel like you’re suffocating in your own hatred alone in the dark. And then it’ll hit you. All the pain, all the hate all the darkness only emphasizes the light, the pleasure and the love you’ve received. You’ll realize just like I did that one good memory is all it takes to make change. Because as long as you’re alive you can talk. You can move. Everyone reaches the same point, when you do, think of what’s worth living for and move to make it happen. Remember the past pain you’ve lived through, but don’t linger. Without us there can be no change. We are the future. There have been no other generations like us before. Lets show them how much s**t we’ll take for what we believe in. This message is for whoever stumbles across it. Too let you know you’re not alone. stare

*hugs*
Bro i know exactly where your coming from. it's not easy.
Hell sometime I just wish i'd disappear.
Just keep this in mind. Things are gonna get worse before they get better. You've gotta be strong. If not for anybody but yourself.