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if only it were that simple. most of the people in my school are girls. i learned that i was to be courteous to them. but they all got the wrong idea. especially from my ex's. (last yr i was a dumb sophomore and made some stupid choices. not drugs just some relationship no nos). so ya those rumors were spread so every girl i've talked to (usually in like a partner for a project setting) gets hold of this rumor and then the next day i'm left flying solo on a project. it's easy to see how they react. it's typical the girl who is my partner approaches the teacher and tells him/her "i don't like him becuase." then whispers into that teachers ear the rumor. i usually try to help everyone in my class. but usually im either used or left solo. i'm used to it now. i hate how i'm so different. my style is as an individual. i'm a mexican who has blonde hair, wears a scarf, isn't gangster, likes anime, always nice to everyone, very smart. no one likes that. it's either you gotta be a druggy or a drunk in order to be accepted.

i was a huggle buddy to most of my friends. then as the yrs past by everyone started hating me. the ex's i had dated had spread the facts that i wasn't too good of a person. which i wasn't back then. but as thigns get spread out into the masses it takes alot of exagerations. so absically it came up to as " don't go out with him he's horrible don't even look at him mkae his lfie miserable don't accept help from him, become silent when he walks by don't even stand within 5 ft of him. " it's always been like that. my was dyed blonde. the roots are easy to see now. soon ill get a hair cut and it'll be back to black. it'll be easier to hide within the crowds now.

Dude. I am going to be cold but, don't bother.

There is no such thing as living off of something so one sided. I tried, took me three weeks to eat a meal when things went sour.

You seem to think like a level headed guy, go and find a girl that doesn't say 'I'm volatile'. I mean, what kind of threat or excuse or anything is that? and if she is giving you that much of a cold shoulder. Dude, no man should have to force himself to deal with that, it's cold and wrong, you give her a place in your heart and she tells you to hit the road if she thinks someone might see her with you, she sounds likes a 'popularity complex' so worried something might ruin her reputation to the rest of everyone.

There are a million girls that are kind and sweet and loving and everything else that means something in the long run. Go looking for a girl that loves you, a girl that wants your hug. You deserve it, and there may be some girl right now who may like you that you haven't given a true chance because of this. try there first my freind.

thanks you for your time.

phynx is right. in the long run, youshould go for what you deserve. you don't need a girl that is more conscious of what others think rather than how she feels. i know we're jumping topics here but i have to mention this while my momentum is still going. if you should consider someone close enough to be a sister/brother..it hsould be special. like i mean, deserving. it shoudln't be thrown around like a casual thing coz once it does the value of the 'word' or 'title' takes a lesser meaning. i.e. a former bestfriend of mine considered my ex her bestfriend, too. but as time went along, he realized she's been calling every other close friend of hers bestfriends too. so, on his part, her epitaph for him lost meaning. he thought, "s**t, you're her bestfriend, too? and you over there, you're her bf too? what the hell am i then? how many 'bestfriends' are there?" i don't think she deserved that title as your sister, as you say. next time, have more reservations razz

aww. well, is that what you want? do you feel good about it?i mean, as long as you don't mind keeping to your business all the time..as long as youcould actually hold your head up high and be completely fine and confident..like, having that as a personal preference coz you'd be wasting your tiem w/ other so called friends..then i guess, it's ok. but if you're going home feeling sorry for yourself, lugging it out in the school hallway sulking, and always gazing after a group of friends...then, you shouldn't be a loner. remmeber that advice i gave you about trying to atone for your image? try that and let me know what happens wink

well here's an update. the girl i liked lu stared at the asian guy down my row. always smiling when she looked at him. when i smiled she was disgusted.

me:what? what's wrong?

when you smile it seems as if you're disguisted.

me:what?

you just look ugly don't do it again.

*she turns to look at the asian guy*

me: maybe you should be with him he's much better than me . you always smile at him.

actually i don't like chinese.

me: o? if you ahd to choose would you choose me or him?

actually neither cuz i liek white guys. not to be racial or anything

me: .... i'm guessing that WAS racially motivated.....that's the 1st time i've ever been shot down mainly because of my skin color.

after that i decided to not speak to her like i used to. she deserves the "aquaintance" title instead of friend or "good friend"

i asked her why she said those thigns she said that she didn't know why. probably cuz she never had 1 b4.

lol..the asian guy said that? it's funny..haha..but i think he's an a** for being so painfully blunt. and i'm blunt. well, if it screwed her head on tight, then.."mission accomplished." i still think it' sfunny. hey, do you like girls like that? i mean, that treat you that way? seems like you have a streak for girls that slight you.