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I think you should, because you like him. You can't let some of your other friends stop you from doing what you want just because they don't like him. They're certainly not dating him, you will be dating him. Besides, if those friends that don't like chris doesn't talk to you much, can you really call them friends? Can what they think really mean that much to you?

I think that you should got out with Chris, if you really like him, don't let some one hold you back because you never know what would happened.

I'd be cautious if I were you....it sounds like you don't know if chris likes you. Maybe you should tell him how you feel and let it sink in before trying anything, he seems like he'd be cool with it. See how he feels about you then go for it if he feels the same. If not, just stay friends.

It's a lot of just common sense but I hope it does help in some way

tanks for all the advice... i was hanging with him sam and a friend today...

my friend is outly gay and all...

before he showed (the kid) i was hanging over chris, laying on him (because he doesn't object to it.) so i was just liike "bleh... pillow" and all... and my friend sam left for a few and we got to talking, and i said something about him being bisexual and he said he wasn't. i told him he def is, look at us. (atm my head was basicaly in his crotch). he gave me a look and said whatever. well 20 mins alter my friend showed up, so we went to get him, i got rape hugged... we went back to the laundry room.

i beggan throwing my interest instead of at the boy that barely cares that i like him to the boy i used to like and could actualy start something with.

so chris just up and left after seeing that small change... so i think he was jelouse so does sam... i don't know really...

so... me and the other kdi (tim) and sam went to the park. it was dark out (8ish) and we were justchilling... and out of no where tim grabs me and pulls me on him... we were freezing.. but that kept us warm... so we sat with me laying back on him and him laying on the play gorund thing for a bit. sam came and layed near us... after a while he kept making sexual jesture things towards me and sam was like "do you want me to leave?" and tim was like "yes... go over there" so she did, and like 5 seconds after she got out of view he grabbed me and sarted kissing me. i was like "WOAH!! slow it down bud." so i pushed him back and was like "woah, tim." and he was like "what?" so we chatted for a few mins... and we ended out making out for like a half hour. sam ended up sleeping voer my hosue (her parents locked her out.) and we were chatting, and he IMed me... it was my first time making out (i mena toung and all) so he was like "Was that your first time making out?" and i was like "yea..." and he was like "aww."

so he asked me not to tell anyone that he did that... which makes me think he is ashamed he had to stoop so low to make out with a freshman, he said it wasn't that it was that he didn't want drama to build up between him and his friends that live near me... i don't know...

i like chris.. but he doesn't seem interested... but tim seems a bit whorey...

i don't know... rawr. i hate men!! damn them and their good looks!!

lol ok. i did.

people don't change dear, you have to decide between the homicidal pssosiopath or someone else.

Ok, so today was the "National Day of Silence" for the gay kids in my school, i'll tell a bit about that in a few in a new post. ANyway, o i signed up for it, and i went and got a white erase borad thing and a marker. and i went to C hall and chris was walking into the school via-back door. he was just smoking, i could smell it from where i was. He didn't used to smoke, he started recently... i guess from depression. Well i walking into C-hall greeted by my usual hug from a few friends. Chris came up beihind me and was like "hey" and i was like "... -writes hey on my board-" he laughed and asked what was up. i gave him this paper i was given incase someone asked about it. he read it and understood. i decided i couldn't stand much longer and went and sat next ot my friend and her boy friend (i hat her bf... but w/e) and he followed me. he sat next to me and kept tlaking, i wrote "you smell like smoke" and he told me to shut up. i wrote "you need to stop. no kidding" and he looked at me and was like "yea yea... i'm trying... i'm gunna slowly cut down.. i usualy smoke 2 a day... i'll try and cut down to 1... then 1/2... and so on.." and i just smiled. so i kinda went into this position i go into when i get cold and i'm sitting. he skootched a bit closer, i smiled but tried to play things cool. nia got up, gave me a hug and went off with her boyfriend. and chris continued talking.. no idea what about. he said somethign like he's gaining weight, and i turned. i wrote that he needs to stfu, he weighs like 106 lbs. and i wrote "i only like scrawny white boiz ;D" and he said "good another reson to gain weight. i kinda got a little upset from that. i decided to get up and leave, so i stood and began walking off. He immediatly followed. I went to my friend Somer and gave her a hug. he followed still and said hello to her. i turned abrubtly and went the other way, i heard a friends voice and wanted to go ... write to her. lol. he still followed. the five minute bell rung (meaning i have 5 mins to get to homeroom) i let out a sigh and began to go towards the end of the hall to move to B hall. He followed and stopped me. Asking where my homeroom was. i wrote "B-14" and he was like "that's like really close, i'll walk with you." so i was like "..." and he followed. i went to my locker and bent down to throw things in my messenger bag. he stood watching, and waited for me to stand. he gave me a hug and whispered that he had to go to homeroom. i smiled and nodded. he left. i walked into homeroom, to see the other boy i've had a crush on since like... mid-summer last year. he just gave me this.. look. bleh. so i went through school silently. cursing at people via-the board. in german some kid was making fun of me for being gay, i wanted to just turn and tell him to stfu. the girl behind me did it for me. She was like "you know that's really rude..." and he laughed. he doesn't care. if he says anything tomaro i'ma tell him to shut his little straiget fatt a** the hell up.

so i got through the day. whoopie. i got home... blah. had things to do. around 5:30ish my friend megan wanted to hang, so i went ove rher hourse, we went out aorund town... i found out Dj (the kid from my homeroom i've had a crush on) hates me with a burning passion, she said everytime he is over she is like "...i'm gunna call TJ up! he can come chill with us." and DJ is always like "ewww nooooo" DJ is the kinda kid everyone KNOWS is gay/bi but refuses to admit it. i think he isn't. i wish he was, but he isn't. i want him... but w.e... thanks to that i'm now depressed. i also found out chris likes this girl i know. so i'm like "wtf..." yea... bleh...

love sucks. lifes a b***h... and god hates me... oh well. so is life...

Nation Day Of Silence is a day that all gay/bi/lezbian people (and supporters) are silent, to show how gay/bi/lezbian people have had to be silent all their lives, weather it be because they like someone, or because they have to put up with torment. It's really sad... i went horugh 8 years of my life as a lie... and i'm still living my life as a partial lie, but it's for my safety. i'm not telling ym family, my cousins have already threatened to beat me up if i was... bleh... i ahte liiife.

well...what do u think he was talking about? and do u think he was serious? are u dissapointed he hasn't showed up?