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So yeah, I've made a few journal entries about what I think, but nobody really replies to them. My journal is set 'friends only', but still. I need attention, and I'm too dumb to ask for it in real life so I'm just going to post some random entries and hope for your help, okay? sweatdrop
I'll post them in the order I posted them in my journal. Also, I tried to 'lable' the quotes with the titles my journal entries had.
Some entries are here just because they tell what I am like when I'm... Pissy. surprised Did I mention I lately smoke 3 packs a day and can't cut that down? sweatdrop

Hmm... sounds to me like you just hit a low point on the roller coaster of life. I don't smoke, so I can't say I know how it feels to be compelled to smoke that much a day. Still, I'd worry about the stress in your life before trying to cut down... if you try to cut down first, it may make you even more stressed.

From what I'm getting at, a lot of your stress stems from harassment from others, especially in the area of verbal insults. You just have to understand why they're insulting you. Really, they're not trying to hurt you. What they ARE trying to do is make themselves seem better about who they are. And they pick somebody to take that out on who they know will be affected by it. Just try to remember that whenever they try to make themselves seem better than you by insulting you, they are really just degrading themselves. This will be really apparent if you act like you're unaffected by it. I understand that it won't be easy, but if you find yourself being insulted, just think to yourself "you know, what they say doesn't matter. Because they're trying to hurt me, I am superior to them. The only people they're hurting are themselves!" If you do start to get emotional, don't let them see it. Keep ignoring them until you're away from them. As long as they don't see you get upset about it, they'll think that their taunts are ineffective, so they'll stop wasting their energy on you.

As for Angelique... I'm just really not sure what to say. Sorry... sweatdrop

Anyway, that's my thoughts on it. I hope things go better for you, I really do! blaugh

On the other hand, it seems like you really, really don't want to be addicted to smoking. I think I'll take back what I said earlier, and suggest trying to give it up. You will feel a lot better once it's all said and done. And while you're trying to quit, it might give you something else to think about, instead of worrying about the jerks all the time. And wouldn't it be a great confidence booster, too? Knowing that you can win out over an addiction like that? It would make me feel better about myself. So maybe that's something you should look into.

Okay, whatever you feel is best. I was just throwing some suggestions around 3nodding

i know it's strange but lots of people eat life savers to help them quit smoking or even cut down. like say you've had 2 cigarettes so far and you feel like having a third. try a lifesaver instead, just let it sit in your mouth and see how long it holds you off. on 3 packs a day, I say it's worth a try.


I totally think the kid who threw the soup on you deserved it. I know how every one says violence isn't the answer. but sometimes it's hard to find another way to stand up for yourself. Just try not to get yourself into more trouble.


It still blows my mind that gay bashing stills happens.


About your pregnant friend. It is your child you do have rights as a father. I would look 'em up. Is she 18 yet? If worse comes to worse then I say after the baby is born take it to court and sue for visitation rights. I don't know. I hope that this situation works out for you and you can talk to your bestfriend again and see your baby.

Well Angelique is in no relation to your mommy, so I think that you don't need to worry about that.

As long as you enjoy the just the thought and not the action, you'll be ok. I'm sure jail sucks.

ANd for your boyfriend, if you don't even know what for i suppose you could forgive him, and then tell him you're sorry for yelling. I'm sure he could be of great comfort.

Ack, my parents do that do, when all I really want is their opinion or a sugesstion. they're supposed to be the older wiser ones. gonk

I think they'd be crazy to actaully not have any thoughts on the issue. I would tell them that I would really like their help on figuring out what to do, tell them that you appreciate their opinion( even if you don't, itmight squeeze one out of them). and tell them that i couldn't obviously fix this on my own.