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You really shouldn't cut... it's just adding to your stress when you want to hide the scars...

Maybe the counseling will help you not feel so lost and depressed, just give it a chance...
~If you don't like counseling after a few sessions- talk to your parents about it, if they wont listen, I'm pretty sure you could endure it for a while...

Alright, though not directly, I think I can relate and help you. Like Fenera said, you really shouldn't cut. Here comes my first reason to relate: I used to cut, I don't do it anymore because I realized it doesn't solve anything. Not only is it a pain to hide the scars, but really, it doesn't do anything for you. Yes, it gives some mind peace because you focus on the physical pain instead of the emotional one, I know, trust me, I know because that's why I used to do it. But I realized it was pointless because it brought peace for only a little bit. Afterwards the emotional pain was back, and the problem remained. It's a destructive self-defense mechanism, yes. But DESTRUCTIVE! And, it really doesn't help. That's why I say you shouldn't cut. Furthermore, about the divorce: this may sound cruel, I know because it did to me, but truth is, they didn't ask you for permission when they were gonna get married, there's no need for them to ask you about breaking it, either. Yes, it sounds bitchy, I know. It did to me, too, when my brothers told me so. You see, my parents are also divorcing. This divorce, however, has been rather hard. My dad has a mental illness, so he forgets stuff a lot [no, not Alzheimer. some symptoms, but not enough, according to the docs, to say it IS]. Because of it, mother grew tired [8 years like that, who wouldn't?] so....it's been a hard divorce. Honestly, I'd understand if you said you didn't want counseling. I'm one that hates counseling, too. But there's one counseling you can count on to be completely honest, secret, and helpful: friends. They are the ones you gotta talk to. But I mean REAL FRIENDS. Ones that can hear your problem over and over, see you cry over and over because of it, and still offer a shoulder for you to cry on once more for the same thing. These type of things are like that, and they require that type of friends. I've lost count of the many times I've cried over my problems [parents divorce, father's illness, brother with cancer, another one in the NAVY, a cousin in Iraq, etc.], and I hardly doubt I'm done crying. I just keep seeking my friends when I need them. They help me out. and honestly, though indirectly [because very few of them know I cut before], they helped me stop cutting. I saw that cutting was a waste of time, pointless, as I said before. talking and finding comfort in my friends was much more healthy, and, by far, much more helpful. of course, it's not an over-night thing, I understand that. But realized and think throughly what I said. It really is useless to cut.<<<< [most important thought here, if you don't wanna read the rest

Cutting is an addiction. I suffer from its wrath too. I would be hypocritical to tell you to stop cutting, but there are other ways of stress relief. If you don't like counseling (personally I hate it) then talk to your friends. Because friends truly understand and care about you, while a counselor is paid to understand and care. If you're more of a physical person, try beating the crap out of a pillow, punching bag, or other object. Write in a journal. Write emo poetry. Whatever takes your mind off the pain.

first off, I'm terribly sorry about all of this. just remember that you'll always be able to talk with your uncle, no matter where he is. Remember, people do die, and I don't know what your beliefs are, but if you ask me, she's there watching over you. and she won't like that you're cutting. neither will your uncle. your parents divorcing is really hard, but this is the time where you need to get everything out, through a journal, or through someone to talk to. someone who'll listen to everything you say.

I used to cut... at first you can see that it might help, but it dosnt, it just leaves you scars. and fter they heal you gonna see the, and your goin to remember WHY you have does scars. that waht happens to me, I see my scars and I remember why i did it. My grandma died a week before my b-day and that day I wasnt with her, but I dint cut, cause I knew she would like me to doe that, as same with your grams, she donst want to see you hurt. and about your parents, well maybee there looking for help, bad would have been if they were getting worse. You and your uncle can still comunicate, remember, we have tecnology xD And phones and still the god old lettler in the mail. So thers no stoping you for talking to your uncle. Think of the good sides of thing, if your grams was suffering, she's not anymore... and like I said, your parents are looking for help and you can still can comunicate with your uncle. so stop hurting yourself, is not the best way to get help, if you wan thelp talk with your parents that you want help so you can go trew the thing you are goin trew calm. My best wishes for you. Take care wink