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Thoughts? Not limiting to a certain set of beliefs, of course. I want to see how people from all walks of life approach the idea of dying, and especially permanently ceasing to be.

Having recently decided on being an Atheist, I had quite the mortality scare. It took a long time, but I think I've finally come to terms with the idea that I'll one day not be around. It's really become something I like to think about seriously every once in a while.

I'd really like to get the two cents of people from other walks of life, of different belief systems.

And, sorry if this is a bit dark. It's not supposed to upset anyone.

For as long as I remember, I've been completely alright with the idea of dying. It doesn't scare me or make me nervous at all. I've realised that the only thing I'm afraid of is the act of dying: physical pain, panic and fighting for my life. I'm also afraid of my loved ones suffering. But death has always been a very simple concept for me. While I'm leaning towards nothing happening after death, simply because it's the easiest option and the one I prefer, I'm at peace with not knowing and having no way of finding out; I find personal freedom in that. It gives me the ability to give up on finding out, and not having to care about it. It lets me get rid of many existential troubles and just live my life.

As for what afterlife or non-afterlife I prefer, I strongly hope for nothing. I hope for my mind to cease existing instantly. The reason is that, again, it would give me freedom. I wouldn't ever have to worry about anything again; it would be over for good. After years of introspection, I've found out that my biggest existential fear is eternity. The concept is so impossible to comprehend that I wish I will never have to face it or experience it on my own. That's why the concept of an eternal afterlife scares the hell out of me.

Many people, when I tell them about my thoughts on mortality, find my thoughts very morbid, and some of them interpret them as me actively wanting to die. That's not the case though. Of course I want to stay alive until I get old; when faced with a life or death situation, I will obviously fight for my life. But I have a rather passive approach to death; after all, everything can kill you, and you don't always see it coming. It can happen instantly. Instead of worrying about fatal accidents and such, I figure it doesn't make any difference. If I die, there's nothing to do about it, and that's alright.

Of course, this goes for myself on a personal level only. I still fear losing my friends and family; death is just as scary to me as to anyone else when it's other people. This became a bit confusing, I think, but there you have it. I find this quite an interesting topic.

Recently upon thinking about the concept of mortality and nonexistence after death, I came to realize that for me the thought eternal existence is just about as frightening to me. After a while in an afterlife you would probably run out of things to do and become extremely bored, I'd imagine (even if you had an eternity).

A boring or uneventful day can be a little bad, but to have something like that last forever sounds a bit bad to me.