PROBLEM:
I'm still young. Like, I'm just to the age where boys are becoming the big accessory, everyone is talking about everyone else, the coffee shop is The Place, but we can't yet drive. Much too young to lose my mom, right?
She's been going blind for a while I guess, and the doctors think it's MS, but they can't detect anything other then her blind-ness. She also has high BP, chemical depression, and has had random hemroging of the brain that they couldn't fix [it worked itself out].
Now, you see, I'm too young to lose my mom, and I can't stand my dad [he doesn't have custody anyway] and I've grown up with her.
How do I deal with this? Her mom died on Christmas day eight or ten years ago now and I just don't know what to do about it.
She started off taking Sterriods and Chemo, along with other drugs for her other problems. The doctors had to take her off of the Chemo they had started because it was trashing her Liver.
RECENTLY:
They put her back on the Chemo. today. Well, it was about ten last night anyway. I feel just awful, you have to be quiet around her, and her stomach is aching. All she did today was lay on the couch, saying she was alright. She puked twice.
Tomarrow, she says, will hurt worse then today. But she says she'll build a tolorance to the pain after a few days or a week or so. Still, I feel awful I can't help her.
We talk alot, but we are so similar that it gets annoying to be with each other after an hour or so.
This is awful, seeing her like this. All I want to do recently is cry, no matter how strong she seems. Sometimes, I see how she really feels. Out of the corner of my eye when she thinks I'm not looking. I still see she's hurting.
There is nothing that I do all day but be strong. I don't whine about just about any thing, ever, and I never have. I've always been strong, and the only way to make my cry is to get my mom. Recently, just to pretend she's alot happier then she is and to keep my from breaking down, I play Mary Poppins. She can sound just like her and my mom and I both like watching the movie.
I'm still young. Like, I'm just to the age where boys are becoming the big accessory, everyone is talking about everyone else, the coffee shop is The Place, but we can't yet drive. Much too young to lose my mom, right?
She's been going blind for a while I guess, and the doctors think it's MS, but they can't detect anything other then her blind-ness. She also has high BP, chemical depression, and has had random hemroging of the brain that they couldn't fix [it worked itself out].
Now, you see, I'm too young to lose my mom, and I can't stand my dad [he doesn't have custody anyway] and I've grown up with her.
How do I deal with this? Her mom died on Christmas day eight or ten years ago now and I just don't know what to do about it.
She started off taking Sterriods and Chemo, along with other drugs for her other problems. The doctors had to take her off of the Chemo they had started because it was trashing her Liver.
RECENTLY:
They put her back on the Chemo. today. Well, it was about ten last night anyway. I feel just awful, you have to be quiet around her, and her stomach is aching. All she did today was lay on the couch, saying she was alright. She puked twice.
Tomarrow, she says, will hurt worse then today. But she says she'll build a tolorance to the pain after a few days or a week or so. Still, I feel awful I can't help her.
We talk alot, but we are so similar that it gets annoying to be with each other after an hour or so.
This is awful, seeing her like this. All I want to do recently is cry, no matter how strong she seems. Sometimes, I see how she really feels. Out of the corner of my eye when she thinks I'm not looking. I still see she's hurting.
There is nothing that I do all day but be strong. I don't whine about just about any thing, ever, and I never have. I've always been strong, and the only way to make my cry is to get my mom. Recently, just to pretend she's alot happier then she is and to keep my from breaking down, I play Mary Poppins. She can sound just like her and my mom and I both like watching the movie.
