Okay, so here's my problem...
I have a twin sister who is better than be in just about every way imaginable. I don't know why it kills me so much, but it just does.
For the most part, we have the same friends, both online and in the real world.
The thing is, I have one friend who means a lot to me, and every time I mention him, my sister starts whining about how she'd really like to talk to him, but I just can't let her.
Why? You may be wondering. Long story short, any of my friends that I introduce to her like her more. I used to think it was just me being insecure, because I can admit, I am. But, I know it's not in my mind. A new friend I made, I decided to introduce her to my sister. In a matter of weeks, my friend fell in love with my sister...which totally sucks in my opinion.
This friend claimed that she couldn't have such feelings for me because I already have a girlfriend, but that's bull, because my sister has a boyfriend.
I reached a point where it depressed me to such an extent that I lost control. I make characters, masks and other personas to help me deal with the world. Unfortunately, it often leads me to destroy things in my life. In this case, I upset my friend so much that she disappeared for a while and came back to tell my sister that she had gone outside to cry because I had hurt her...and I didn't care about it either.
Over the past week I've gone over every friendship and relationship I've had and told myself that they actually meant nothing. I'm stuck in that mindset and, try as hard as I might, I can't get out of it.
I just... I don't know what to do anymore. Everything has lost it's meaning to me.
I have a twin sister who is better than be in just about every way imaginable. I don't know why it kills me so much, but it just does.
For the most part, we have the same friends, both online and in the real world.
The thing is, I have one friend who means a lot to me, and every time I mention him, my sister starts whining about how she'd really like to talk to him, but I just can't let her.
Why? You may be wondering. Long story short, any of my friends that I introduce to her like her more. I used to think it was just me being insecure, because I can admit, I am. But, I know it's not in my mind. A new friend I made, I decided to introduce her to my sister. In a matter of weeks, my friend fell in love with my sister...which totally sucks in my opinion.
This friend claimed that she couldn't have such feelings for me because I already have a girlfriend, but that's bull, because my sister has a boyfriend.
I reached a point where it depressed me to such an extent that I lost control. I make characters, masks and other personas to help me deal with the world. Unfortunately, it often leads me to destroy things in my life. In this case, I upset my friend so much that she disappeared for a while and came back to tell my sister that she had gone outside to cry because I had hurt her...and I didn't care about it either.
Over the past week I've gone over every friendship and relationship I've had and told myself that they actually meant nothing. I'm stuck in that mindset and, try as hard as I might, I can't get out of it.
I just... I don't know what to do anymore. Everything has lost it's meaning to me.
