• Within the confines of my mind, i am confused with my feelings.

    I feel betrayed by two of my closests friends. One who i share everything with and the other who understands and listens to me talk about my creativeness.

    i was with this friend, we had a type of relationship nothing more, (fbw) and it was fine till i felt something for him and i thought he felt the same, with all that he was telling me "Your the most dateable out of the girls i know, your a sweet person, pure heart, to good." that was only a way to let my guard down so we could do something that i didn't really want to do... but it happened..

    But after that, i found out that they were going on a date, she asked me if i cared of not, at first i was like i don't really care but i really did. But i set aside my feelings because she was my best friend and i love her. So after that i had a feeling i was used and thrown away and i was right, he's acting different towards me.... so i was only a means for a physical satisfaction... not even worth being treated as a person... i feel like i am second best now compared to her... as if i am not even dateable....

    I bet you, if i pulled myself away from them they wouldn't even notice of even care and if they did, they would be faking it... i can't trust them with their words now. until i feel better they will not see me at all.... i am done with feeling like am only to be used, and then ignored... i am worth more then that...