• how can you even look me in the eyes?
    i don't see you struggling just not to cry,
    while i'm a mess; a nervous wreck,
    my heart's been broken, blood invades every aching chamber of my chest.
    you were the first thing i've ever loved,
    but apparently, for you, love's just not enough.

    my eyes are tired;spilling saline for days,
    i'd say, a litre of tears or two just today,
    and along with you, sleep's run away, now
    sleeping pills keep nights separate from days.

    my hands are cold, shaky and alone,
    nostalgia invades every inch of my bones.
    there's a knot in my throat, lingering in my mind,
    contemplated knives, a bloody and beautiful suicide,
    it's all because of you, you ******** liar,
    how could you, in my own skin, i write.

    or how come i bought into it all?
    i loved you too much,
    this is all my fault.