• You will never know

    I feel like im on a tight rope no joke im in a smokers house chokeing on each tote they take im choking so bad im about to break no room im trapped my soul cannot

    escape like a snake I got to slip away a pray for the better times im free only threw these rymes but im still a monster roaming around but I cant do this any longer im

    holding up everybody ill die before I let one of my freinds down always helping with their drama still sitting here haveing to help my own mama cuase the babys left with

    out a dad and I know that yall are thinking that this is kinda sad but relax and understand why im mad cuz I to once had a father but he left and I grew stronger thats

    what turned me into this Monster getting so advanced had move on and get smarter stronger and faster cuase I cant slow down my worlds moveing so fast im falling to

    the ground lifes a fight im going pound for pound spin me round but I wont frown I get right back up no time to clown in this game and keep my head up cuase my mother

    has no help its just me and im trying my hardest but I cant do it all holding her up so she will not fall and my freinds to takeing care of my baby brother and this is not my

    responsibillity but I make it my own even though some times I know I just want to be alone and I sit and think anyone else even those who have already seen theyed

    commit suicide look at me in my eyes threw this disguise im no ordinary guy but I realize my life struggles were so hard I have to be a real man cuase sometimes lifes

    hard for you so another persons could be easy please belive me I think its so my brothers life could go easy but even I the same guy thats the ultimate creature a

    vampire turned into a beliver from a disbeliver a soldier in the life called war out of ammo no grenades in a deck of cards im a spade but I feel like I have burried me and

    look at these analagys and see me for me please belive I am falling and I have to get right back up and no one else can do it so dont ever judge me dudes you dont

    know what im goin threw but now you do so now you see im more a man then you your 27 im 17 its only 10 years inbetween and forget shoes your still a kid you cant fit

    my big mans jeans im still looking lean and mean about to make my green and pay for it all cuase unlike you I know how to ball im in a tough time but in my own mind I

    design my ways to get up and unlike you who has a kid ill never let up ill take your responsibllity to and make it threw just know that im now and never going to be doing

    this for you.

    true life story from my past to my present all im going threw and I never ask for help just thought yall should know so you realize why im so cold-ZC ZANE CALINE