• Not what I used to be...
    Seems like there is nothing I can be but what I am now....
    Evil...
    Disgusting...
    Insane...
    Dark...


    All I feel is pain and rage.
    The tears never end.
    The wounds never heal...
    Yet I show no emotions, I still hurt.
    The things I have done will never fade.

    I have become my childhood fear.
    Fear that suppresses me.

    Maybe if you were still here I would be who I was before...
    When I screamed, you fought away the monster.
    And you would wipe away my tears.

    Now Im bound by the monster.
    I am his captive and can never escape...
    Yet, I hold the monster's hand...
    And the monster holds mine.


    ~Jessy Alvarez