• Notebook girl, all I have is a pen
    But when words decieve me, what happens then?
    I can't speak and I can't write
    I try to but none of my words come out right
    My mind is clouded with anger
    To my notebook I look like a stranger
    Confusion haunts me, I'm controlled by the pills
    I can't even explain how dizzy I feel
    But even when drowsy and tired, I would still write
    So tell me, what's stopping me tonight?
    Now I'm just empty, now I'm just numb
    I can't write a poem, not even one
    I'm trying to help myself but my head isn't clear
    How can I help me when my mind isn't here?
    My mind is in the past, back many days ago
    Because I'm living in a flashback, just to let you know
    And even when I find the words that I think may fit
    Everytime I try to speak, I have a fear of getting hit
    Everytime I open my mouth, I feel your hands again
    They cover my mouth, they hold me tight, they try to pull me in
    But you're not here, you're a thousand miles away
    So tell me, why do I still fear you to this day?
    Any grace left in me you have taken,
    You've left me bruised, beaten and shaken
    Any words from my mouth you have stolen
    I can only write an empty poem