• You had me so young,
    You had no clue what to do.
    All you did was leave me there, at my grandmas home.
    You cried in front of me when i was so young,
    and all because of that,
    I blame myself for every tear you drop.
    For a person who gave me life, my god, my mother.
    You made me think life was nothing but misery...
    Even father made me lose hope when i was with him...
    Yet when i chose to not live with neither...
    still put that as my most smartest decision...
    Father, he still calls,
    he still says i love you with no pain,
    he asked me questions about his decisions.
    You know why?
    He wants me to be happy with him...
    But you...
    My god, my mother.
    You kept your marriage to a man i despise a secret till i was far away from you.
    You kept my half blood siblings secret till I visited.
    Then when I finally met you after four years past...
    You cried next to me saying how much pain you went through...
    After leaving me...
    You have no clue what pain you have carved into me!
    But i can't stop but to forgive you.
    My god, my mother, my most painful memory...
    Mother I love you...yet my memories tell me...I also hate you...
    To me you are not a child's god...