• as i look in the mirror...
    all i see is a mere image of a lifeless soul....
    more then likely i know i will not get out of this state...
    ♥
    state of what??......
    state of emotion and darkness....
    out of my mind is what is becoming of me.....
    more and more each day...
    ♥
    my heart....
    can't possibly take any more...
    all this screaming...
    fighting....
    makes me want to run...
    ♥
    run away...
    from the pain....
    from the yelling.....
    from the screaming....
    from the darkness....
    ♥
    what i see.....
    i see light...
    on the other side...
    no more pain....
    no more yelling....
    no more anything.....
    it feels great....
    but still it feels like there is a hole....
    a hole i can't fill.....
    nothing is everything to me....
    ♥
    how???...
    i dont know......
    i know nothing anymore....
    with this hole growing bigger...
    bigger and bigger in my heart....
    pulling...
    tearing.....
    more hurt....
    more everything.....
    it has started again.....
    everything i have worked to get away from....
    is back....
    ♥