• behind your shadow
    i stand and fall
    its a tough battle
    in which i feel so small
    my feelings toward you
    you might think are dumb
    sad upset confused
    angry hurt and numb
    when i needed a mom
    you were not there
    to talk about boys
    or to fix my hair
    yes you did visit
    every once in awhile
    but an ocean of tears
    hide behind this smile
    tormented trapped and torn
    my heart says i feel
    all these years after i was born
    my heart still wont start to heal
    i see other girls
    with their moms
    i go dizzy with swirls
    and crash like a bomb
    the anger in me
    rages in fright
    always staying angry
    i just think i might
    times heals everything
    i don't think that's true
    cuz i know something
    time did not do
    time has been flying
    for a long while
    I've always been trying
    to show a real smile
    the one thing that hurts
    and i don't know why
    you moved so far away
    and it makes me cry
    when i think about this
    to myself i lie
    Ive gotten over you
    that i would not try
    your a mother of three
    me and my brothers
    we hardly know you
    every night i think
    of how my life could have been
    tears run down my face
    and my world starts to spin
    these past years
    have been really hard
    for the rest of my life
    i'll be severely scarred
    it took me time to realize
    what you did to me
    tears in my eyes
    and your clueless it seems
    i try to be brave
    it really hurts
    you could have stayed
    instead of making it worse
    i want you to know this
    its sad but its true
    you hurt your little girl
    and your little boys too
    you ruined me
    you made me cry
    and to laugh i try
    there is a hole in my heart
    the doctors don't see
    i guess they don't know
    what my mommy did to me
    if you want me back
    you have to prove
    you can be a mom
    to me and the boys too
    when i screamed for you
    did you hear a sound?
    i guess you didn't
    because you were never around
    i will tell you something
    you cannot forget
    once you hurt your kids
    it will soon come to regret!