• 1/8/09 “Screaming From Love” By: Brandon McLemore

    This is who I really am, I can’t be around you now. I am killing every one of my emotions that were affected by you. I have killed all my emotions, I still remember what you did. I am empty inside now, I’m bleeding on from this one memory. It fills me with an ugly dying pain. Your screaming fills my ears with blood, it’s tearing me apart. I want to hurt everyone, I want to hear you scream louder and louder. I can hear you as your screaming your confessions and my name louder and louder. Nothing is this world to me. My heart feels useless and pitiful. Your blood turning tears excites me, now feel the pain of love. Do you feel it baby ha-ha, can you feel the blood dripping from your body? This blood of yours will turn bad, do you feel that!? Its love remember baby. You now fall to tour knees crying, your marks and scars still bleeding. I feed you my darkness as I watch you in pain. Your chains rust from the havoc in my mind, this pressure against you is my own pain…my own love. Can you feel the force of my hate and love? Your freedom was taken like your life, the same way…by love. My fire burns you and your soul, can you feel it!? Your blood moving faster then water, you like this don’t you. Every time you close your eyes you scream, you lay on the ground with this force coming over you. You can have all that you want, just don’t stop this feeling inside. All that I want is to feel inside, all my inner desires burst out with your passion. Some kind of comfort would be the best way to break free from this hellish life. I want to feel trapped in you, another way to stay alive in this place. But now I have learned that I don’t need anyone else, to trust only myself. I’m backed up in a corner I know I’ll stay alive. But I am still here, haunted by nightmares. No ones here to help me find the light, no ones here to help me stand up. I must get myself out of this darkness that is manifesting in my mind. All of these emotions are left with me, I don’t know why you fall on me. I’m born alone I die alone. Everything in life goes on without me. Is this how I’ll always be…by myself. Isn’t this what you wanted to see. It doesn’t matter cause you’re the one crying for help. I am the one who gets heartbroken over you. Now your screaming…screaming from my…love.