• He was there, not in a physical appearance
    But he just was, and even now as a remembrance
    My heart burned and tore screaming without doubt
    It was terrible, I wanted to cut it out
    I ripped it out containing this dreadful thing
    When I looked at it, I could hear it sing
    I jammed it into a vial to stop this ugly beat
    Knowing that without it, I’d go down in defeat...

    Yes, I felt so much better that I wore the vial around my neck
    When one day I realized why the heck
    Was I even wearing it
    Even then it felt kinda stupid when said out loud, I admit
    I gave it to my best friend to put away
    To never give it back no matter what I say
    I heard a poem from I wise person I once knew before this vile thing
    She was the strongest person I knew and she gave me meaning...

    “He is the beat of your heart,
    It can not stop when it starts,
    His essence is so sweet,
    He is the cause of your beat,
    Although it is far but very real,
    This is truly how you feel!”

    Then I realized something kinda creepy,
    "Oh snap that poem was written by me!"
    So I tried to get the vial back with everything I had
    I even begged my friend on my knees and that’s pretty sad
    But as soon as I got that vial back,
    I took my heart back and dropped the vial to my feet
    I smiled as I accepted it back,
    And listened to it's joyous love beat...

    Times passed as I held to my heart tight,
    Even though my love for him wasn’t right,
    No more love for him I simply ask,
    But the point I could not grasp,
    I've convinced myself it was only in my head,
    Between the lines that I haven’t read,
    Maybe I don’t love him, it was only an obsession,
    Yes, I hope so, I believe... this is my confession...

    The truth was, no matter if I loved him or not,
    No matter how hard the love I fought,
    I love him in my heart and that was enough,
    Hating him was to hard, to rough,
    I chose this for myself, I was to blame,
    I will never bring this up again nor forget will I, his name...

    For one wish, I could kiss this man in my thoughts,
    To whom my heart was really caught,
    You know who you are and what is true,
    My love is forever, I will always love you,
    No matter the time, no matter the distance,
    Your love has put me under a steady trance,
    You have saved my life, but it isn’t just that,
    You made it worth saving, and that is fact...

    You'd never know that you could be consumed,
    In the though of your lover, I’ve already assumed,
    You are eternally and deeply burned,
    From the warm love of that significant other, I have learned,
    One can not help yourself, but to hide it,
    But one could only try hard enough to fake it...

    If that isn’t the truth, then what is it?
    If love isn’t the warm fuzzy feeling you get,
    If it didn’t feel like an eternity of hopelessness,
    Then why must I cry under Cupid’s pitiness?
    Love comes from the soul, your heart,
    No matter all the pain that tares you apart,
    Its something that could last a lifetime, maybe less, maybe more,
    But its there, some people will try and ignore...

    But how can you ignore the love you have for someone?
    How do you tell them why all your tears run?
    How do you tell them that they mean the whole world to you?
    How do you put it in to words or say it or even do?
    How do you say, “my heart is forever yours“, when they gave their's to another?
    When you’d believe that there could never be others,
    It is simply too easy to say I love you,
    But it is also easy to lie and hurt me though.

    This is my fault for falling for you,
    And I don’t know what else I could to do,
    I will take this vial, shatter the edge,
    I will cut my wrists and fall deeply off the ledge,
    I will end my life,
    I will cut my heart out with this knife
    My love for you will end right here,
    Because my life is yours forever my dear,
    I will not let love take my life away,
    I will let hatred of love take it today...

    So you think it will just end like that,
    So you think I will just fall flat,
    Well I didn’t I’m still alive you see,
    But not for you, I’m alive for me,
    I know I can’t stop this feeling for you,
    And I wouldn't even if you told me to,
    I only ended the chapter so take a look,
    You aren’t the whole thing, your just one page in one book...

    You really don’t see what you’ve meant me,
    Your just too blind to see,
    You had my heart because to you I’ve handed it
    But you kicked, smashed and burned it
    And to me this really isn’t fair,
    I loved you and you act as if you didn’t care...
    Well my life is worth a whole lot,
    Priceless is what comes to thought...

    A desperate time calls for a desperate measure,
    How will you face losing the treasure?
    I’ve lost nothing I can promise this to you see
    Because when its over with her, you’ll want to come back to me,
    The question is will I take you back?
    Or will I be the one giving you my back?
    Go ahead ask yourself that question smart guy,
    But to yourself do not lie,

    Look in the mirror and tell me what you see,
    Do you see yourself standing next to her or me?
    She loves you, but for how long?
    And you say loving me is wrong?
    Tick tock tick tock, the clock is counting down
    Soon it will be the time when you’ll want me back around,
    Its sad that I know this about you,
    That I could read on your face what you will do…

    I am no longer tied to your love, this much is true,
    I cant think of another way so this is what I’ll do,
    I will find another who appreciates me
    For one who can see thru my coldness, with me they will be,
    Me be his and he mine,
    So without you I think I will be fine,
    But I’m gonna remember you, and hope you remember me,
    Because to my locked heart you once possessed the key,
    Your page's title is "He stole my heart and I took it back,"
    I'll shred the page away I will hack...

    Well my life is great, it could of been better,
    You wanted out just to be with her,
    I don’t blame you, I blame me,
    I was the fool who could not see,
    You'll never be mine, I figured it out,
    I hope you know what this poem is about,
    I will love you always and forever,
    Infinity and beyond, and I will forget you never.

    So I bet you all are wondering who this wonderful, yet terrible guy may be...
    The part of this poem you are so dying to see...
    This poem symbolizes my love for this horrid man...
    You've been waiting for me to finish this poem, so you can...
    But I cant finish this poem you see my friend...
    Because if it symbolizes my love for him, then I don’t want this poem to end

    You want back into my life once more?
    A think to myself as you stand behind the locked door…
    I love you so very much, but you’ve hurt me,
    I have a life now so please let me be…
    My life may not be like it was when you were there,
    But I can still find someone who will care…

    Wasn’t I right when I said you would be running back,
    And that I said I should give you my back?
    To ignore you, but always love you,
    To remember you, but never think of you,
    To look at you, but never see you,
    To hear you, but never listen to you…

    You think that I will just go weak in the knees and fall into your embrace?
    Well in that case…
    I cry and hug you because I have missed the love we had,
    But it wasn’t a happy cry, more along the lines of sad…
    I look you in the eyes like I did long ago,
    Then I step back and let go…
    I love you ,
    But most of all I hate you…

    (unfinished)