• Gone

    I am here but I don’t feel real
    I see myself live
    Like I am watching someone else
    That second version of me
    Is taking over my life

    I can’t stop it
    Can’t break it
    The only thing I can do
    Is write about it
    She does everything for me
    But I hate it
    I can’t choose myself what to do
    I can’t resist
    I can’t do anything
    But cry and silently write

    When someone reads this
    They won’t understand
    No one will
    Even I don’t

    How long will this last
    It’s been years
    Years without knowing it has passed
    I’m stuck in a moment and I can’t get out

    Events come and go
    Big and Small
    Weddings, funerals and birthdays
    I am not part of it
    Even though I want to be

    All I can do to control the anger and the sadness
    Is to cry and silently write