• she lay's in bed
    she cannot sleep
    She remembers a past
    she rather not
    this girl was once ignored
    no one saw her
    not even her teachers
    she never knew what she felt
    when she watched thee others play
    not until she learned
    what friends where
    but then her 'friends'
    ignored her to
    she was hurting
    but didn't notice
    because of the novicane
    of her past
    she learned she was being hurt
    when she got real friends
    at a summer camp
    she was hurt
    then her pet died
    but she hasn't cried
    she is alone
    her parents love her but,
    her father is never home
    away on business is wear he is
    she dislikes her mum
    and her brother is away
    to bad novicane wont last forever
    and evenchalay she will cry
    her so called 'best friend'
    abandoned her the most
    her past is sad
    but still she knows
    not to complain
    for others have it much worse
    she wishes
    all the pain in the world
    would go into her
    that way no one els would be sad
    she used to cry at night
    but now she doesn't cry at all
    she walks the halls alone
    and goes home knowing
    she must lie
    or els her mother will be sad
    and tell her father
    her beloved father
    and she wishes not to share her pain
    she bottles it up
    but when she did
    her happiness was stuck in the bottle too
    she never smiles,
    if she dose its fake
    but she is healing
    because she writes it down
    she prays no one will find out
    who she is
    questions unanswered
    that she asked at 5
    some people ask
    never in their whole lives
    "who am i?"
    "why don't i belong"
    "why am i here?"
    "what is my purpose in life?"
    "why do i exist?"
    why she never cry's
    is like a million lies
    she never smiles
    but shes getting better
    she can laugh now
    she can smile now
    she expresses her self
    with piano and art
    she'll never know her story's told
    because she wont know
    who reads it
    she sighs as the sun comes up
    'another night with no sleep'
    she prays her journal doesn't
    get read by anyone
    and she goes to school
    mabey one day fully healed
    shell be able to feel
    more than pain