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Look at me... I'm a mess... I live a lie... I'm a fraud... All I've done... LIES!!!!!
My attitude is a lie.
My personality is a lie.
My character is a lie.
I am a lie!!!
Pretending to be someone I'm not!!!!
FOOLISH!!!!!!!
but... I never inetended all of this internal rage within me...
It's just that... back then... everyone treated me... like garbage... like a nobody...
I was different. I must admit. And my contrast from those made me there target. They looked down at me. Talked about me behind my back. Denied my hospitality. I was the lonely girl who sat alone at lunch time. That was ME!!!!!
So... if I can't join them... I'll be them... I'll surpass them. I pretended to like what they like even though I hated it. I pretended to be them even though it disgussed me. BASTARDS!!!!!!
Now... I'm ruined... and it's all my fault... now... I am that girl everyone knows and loves.
That girl who fits in every group... yes... that's me... the girl all boys like...
If only they all knew... she was the girl you all detested... she is the girl who hates you the most!!!!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!!!
LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE MADE OF ME!!!!!!
If I go to my so called "friend" and tell him this... he would go: Oh it's okay... I'll love you anyway....
But I don't want your pity... I... I... I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN!!!!!!!
Why can't you understand this? I want you to hate me like you once did.
During my whole life, I've always been hated or despised. By my family, by my friends, by my partners. ALL OF THEM!!!!
So why stop?! Why stop now when I can feel the glory of your hatred?
HATE ME!!
HATE ME!!
Hate me like you used to do.
Please... please... please.
[cries]
- by Fantastic Nightmares |
- Non Fiction
- | Submitted on 05/25/2009 |
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- Title: Hate me
- Artist: Fantastic Nightmares
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Description:
i wrote this when I was mad. - Date: 05/25/2009
- Tags: hate
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Comments (7 Comments)
- Lonely Vampire Lover - 12/20/2009
- it sounds just like my life... my life is just a one huge joke and nightmare... this is just like story from my life....
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- Bubbly Buddie - 06/24/2009
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If this is about you then why don't you just be yourself again. People don't have to hate you for you to be yourself again.
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- ExceedTheNeed - 06/18/2009
- I remember writing something similar not too long ago. =')
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- Lufpleh - 06/08/2009
- Yikes, hopefully you don't feel like this. Because then I would say stop hating the person you are and do something about it. Stop complaining and feeling hate for yourself, and make yourself better.
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- XX_HI_BUDDY_XX - 05/29/2009
- wow im right there wit ya girl i know whow u feel 5/5
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- Rian_Lena - 05/27/2009
- Um... Wow....
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- danger_addict - 05/25/2009
- nice....if u really mean this it shows emotion...
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