• Johnathan- May 11-
    I used to pass her in the hallways everyday. she always had a smile and looked straight up.Not the kind of girl who always walked stairing at their feet . Not a girl you'd think would be suicidal. she looked a lot like a hippy. quite a bit. I dont mean the kind that didnt shave or brush their hair...I mean the kind that dressed in bright clothes...I always thought she was real pretty, but, I didnt know her. I just saw her everyday. Theres a girl in my show quire named Phobe, now, thats the girl everyone thinks is suicidal...she breaks down crying everyday and slices up her arm. One time I saw April with phobe, phobe was crying on her shoulder and April stood there stroking her hair telling her everything was gonna be o.k. I tell ya,most people stay away from Phobe, because no one knows quite what to say. I dont know, I guess I find this whole thing quite ironic..in a very sad sort of way.

    Sharon- May 12
    I sat right acorss from April in art. she used to talk a lot, but not too much...I mean she didnt have a big mouth is all. She was fun to talk to. despite of how she dressed (a little ecentric) she was pretty normal. Its spooky seeing her chair empty and knowing she didnt move away. That shes gone. Whats even spookier is, knowing she did it herself. I dont get it. She used to laugh a lot, and joke. I dont think she understood that suicide is permanent. That its all over now.

    Katy-May 11
    I went to church with April-I might be old enough to be her mother, but me and her had a very tight bond. I always felt for her. She confided in me about a lot of things...and I knew she was hurting, but not to this extreme. The day to confided in me about how she'd been violated by boy while she'd been drinking,I knew things had gone out of hand. I swore secrecy...something I'm glad I kept for her, but I'd asked her multiple times if she was thinking about hurting herself (in which case I'd be forced to say something). She said no. I wish that I could go back and swear to secrecy about that too...maybe she would have told me she was thinking about killing herself...maybe I would have talked to her about that too. Maybe she'd still be here. I used to hold her like she was my own. I noticed something was wrong when she didnt show up to church for a month... Oh...to go back in time. If only..

    April- May 9 day before suicide
    Im going on for the day, I'd like to think things cant get any worse.Thats a good (more optimistic way) of looking at it, right? Its as bad as things get! I cant think of why in the last few months I cant seem to get happy...no wait, I can. But why is it all of a sudden I look in the mirror and see mybig ugly nose...Why do I want to look like other girls? Its always been a thought of mine. How just...mildly un-attractive and below average I am. Today a friend, well was a friend of mine made a joke about my physical apperance. something about my ugliness... It kinda made me break, I yelled at him. Im tired of peoples s**t,Imean, im not bullied, but everyday I hear girls talk about other girls. no they arent talking about me, infact, besides my friend, I've never heard anything bad said about me, but its hurts me hear people say that stuff about one another. I dont get it. Whats peoples expectation of how others should look. If they knew my secret- that Im bulimic, i'm getting a nose job etc...what would they think? Why do they act like such cunts? It doesnt get any better. Im a dumb ********. Im failing spanish, so...now aparently I'm stupid and ugly...who do I have to go to now?

    Mr.Adams
    May 11-
    Its been a hard day for all of my students, especially the ones that sat at the table with April.One thing I will say about April is- she was a hard worker.I always found it sad someone like her- who worked a job 4-5 days of the week from 4-11pm (from what her and her mother told me) and studied so hard could still fail a class. One thing I noticed, however, is that within the last month her ability to focus and really, even try went down hill fast. I figured it was a good case of post-graduation senioritis...most seniors get lazy, however, it was a shock because it was completely out of her character. This isnt the first student I've lost, but its the first suicide. I tell ya, cases like these are the saddest. Its such a shame. Despite of how she did in school, she was a smart girl. I wish she would have known that.