• my head felt dizzy...i didnt remember much of anything except that...i got drunk...and so did Mike......i remember we made out...a lot...i dont think i did it with him...cause i woke up in my under clothes....i dont know though....i woke up...and mike wasnt there...so maybe he left...i dont know...my head hurts too much to think......

    I just sat on my bed lookng and he floor....i didnt say a word....nothing...i felt cold....i felt alone.....i was..also....angery.....very...angery....but why....! then the phone rang...u jumped a little....i walked down stairs and picked up the phone..."hello...?" i said weakly "uh...er...hi Jac...its..me Mike...." i felt my heart skip a beat......"H-h-hey Mike" "i just wanted to say im sorry for getting you drunk...and uh..er...making out..." he said sadly. "its fine..." "So let just forget it even happen! ok?" "ok..." we said your good byes then hung up...

    i walked up stairs going to bed...i was really tired...and felt sick...i floped on my bed staring at my ceiling....my eyes drifted in and out...open and close...open and close......

    in my dream i was on an island...staring at the wide beautiful blue ocean...it felt so peaceful......i closed my eyes and let the wind hit my face....the scent of the ocean was wonderful...it smelt like honey and cream....weird for an ocean but wonderfull to me...i opened my eyes and walked around the white sanded beach......i was happy here......i hoped there could actually be place like this...so peaceful...wonderful....so happy.....but as i kept walking...i became cold...and the blue crystal sky became cloudy black... it was scary...i wanted to turn back but something kept me going...and going...i finally walked into a dark damp cave...i moved my head from left right....i felt someone come up from behind me...grabing me tightly...not in an evil way...but as a hug...then a heard a voice say "isnt this island beautiful....i got it for you" this persons voice was so graceeful...so peaceful...i answered, "yes..it is" then the peron kissed my neck....i almost melted because of the warmness of his breath....so...amazing...i started to turn around to see who it could be...but when i turned all around...i had woken up.....i sat up from my bed....i almost still could smell the honey and creamed ocean...

    i couldnt stop thinking about that dream...it made me feel so happy...so very happy.....