• Tired of being alive, so tired of crying all the tears she has cried… She just wanted to die… no more pain and no more tears, but the best part of it will be not being here. She lay and waits for death to take her into its welcoming arms. Every one tried to keep her alive… but there are too many things that happen that just can’t be healed by friends. Too many wounds left open. She can see the future and in it she is more miserable than she is now. Why live if you can see everything that is going to be already. Yes it is true… she needed you and she still does…but sometimes she needed love from a family left just escaped when they had the chance. Torn apart by all their little lies… she lost all interest in being alive… she still wanted to be with you… but maybe in another life you can find the same love that she knew was true. A girl with a heavy heart…just had her last tear that she could… now she continues to write… hoping that maybe all the deaths won’t come true…but at the same time she wants them too. She smiled like nothing was wrong… she acted like she was never blue… but if they really knew… they wouldn’t stop her… they would put her out of all her misery and realize… this might be what she was destined to do. Some sort of test in god’s eyes to see how long she could survive this place that she was in. She just wants to let him know… after 13yrs of everything she doesn’t want this anymore. She’s heard things that made her feel rejected… she’s felt enough pain to make even the happiest person want to cry… now all she asks in return is to have her life ended. Although people say everyone was put on earth for a reason… her reason was never found. She had dreams to go places and have fun forever, but her family just tore down all her dreams to leave her with nothing but crushed hopes and adding more weight to her poor heart. She always liked to make people smile even when she had a hard time making herself smile. “A heart of gold” people said she had… even with all the pain and suffering in her…she always found a way to help people through their troubles. She worried for everyone…. She had always dreamt of being able to ease the world of its pain. Such a caring soul wasted on the girl that was born to be broken. She used to sit thinking of ways to help those that she knew… she tried to help even when they thought everything she said wasn’t true. She got angry just like any of you would… but she did care no matter what she said. She tried to weigh out her options. Most of them lead her down the path of death away from what makes her cry and her heart hurt. Some times at night she would cry herself to sleep and not let anyone know. She would lie there and cry and still worry about bothering someone with the sounds of her tears. She did not want to disturb anyone with all her pain so she kept it to herself. So many feelings left unsaid… so many words left hanging dead. People thought this little girl was happy but little did they know what she had to go home to. The problems she had to deal with… all the troubles she had to deal with… all the arguments… everything made her wiser than she was supposed to be. The girl with the heavy and broken heart still cries and wants to die… but she just decided while writing this… that if she died she will never get to do any of the things she wanted to. So she’ll keep hanging on with barley anything to hold onto. She will pick up her shattered dreams and try to make them whole again…. She will ignore all their comments… but one day when they realize that they were wrong and they needed her… she will have made something of herself… and when they ask for help…she will just look at them and say “Where were you all the days I needed protection… all the times I just cried… oh that’s right… you were the one who caused my pain… you tried to break me…”Then before they speak she will finish and say “You come to me for help now that I have made something of myself… Don’t ask the one you tried to break to help you… because I don’t needed you like I used to…” then she will walk away not caring… because even someone with a heart of gold has to realize that when someone breaks you and tries keeps you down, you don’t have to show them kindness…because they brought whatever is wrong on themselves….